Ladybugs + Processing Emotions


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I heard that ladybugs come at moments when we need them. I chanced upon this one on one of my favorite herbs, red clover, and was waiting to find out what it could speak to in my life. Apparently, ladybugs caution us to not rush into striving to fulfill our dreams, but to enjoy life as it unfolds. Funny how those things happen sometimes...

Things have been really hard lately. I can't remember the last day that I haven't at least teared up once or full-on cried. I had my first therapy session this past week. The first thing the therapist said when I sat down was "This was a big step." And she's right. It was a big step. It was admitting that I can't process all the thoughts in my head. That I need someone to help me make sense of what I'm feeling. My emotions are so surface-level that I can cry at a moment's notice. It hurts, y'all. The grief. The anger underneath the grief. The lack of trust in the unfolding of my future. The need to hold on so tightly and have it all together. I just wanted to write this short note to remind you (and me) that you are not alone. If you are hurting, if you are broken, there is always someone experiencing the same thing as you. Thank God we were not put on islands all by ourselves. This is also a reminder that sometimes the best thing you can do for others is to take care of yourself first. It's just like they say on airplanes about oxygen masks. Sometimes you need fall apart to be built back up, but reach out. Ask for help. Feeling emotionally unwell sucks (trust me), but the good news is we don't have to be there for long. I'm so thankful for the family and friends I have around me who have been patient in this time and respond when I reach out.